When you wake up each morning, ask yourself how do you want to feel today?


Depending on what the answer is, will dictate how I eat or how much if any exercise I get in that day. Taking one day as it comes instead of setting a time of 3 months from now, of where I want to be?

One day at a time is hard enough, why would I/we put that added pressure of achieving a goal in a certain amount of time?

I had been thinking this week about the year I got healthy. The year I ate better, exercised more, got the works done (blood work for cholesterol , etc) on checking where my health was and where I need it to be.
I was super motivated. Not to get skinny, but to be healthy again.

40 pounds lost and a very happy woman of how much I had accomplished I got bad news. I had cancer. I was relieved to find out it was something they could take out and I would be okay. But, that fear lead me to eat again. Fear if I lost anymore weight, it might have something to do with the cancer still being there. Even though I was told it was gone. It was already in my mind.

Since that day I've been eating. 40 pounds later I find myself back. Back to thinking how hard I worked to get healthy to find out I wasn't all that healthy. Now I fear if I try to lose weight again, will there be a repeat?

I spoke to my father about how I was feeling. He thinks I might be subconsciously stressing not only about my past, but what is going on with my mother. It then hit me that when we are stress, our sleep pattern does change. Trying to do the simplest things during the day became "blah." I just wanted to sleep. This all made sense.

It wasn't coffee or naps. It was/is stress. I was having anxiety feelings at times and not knowing where or what was causing it, until we talked.


He then said the words I wrote in the first sentence of this post. I felt an overwhelming relief.
I didn't have to be hard on myself or fear the "what if." Just ask myself the one question?
How do I want to feel today? And go with that. Whatever "that" may be.

Happy Birthday Dad! Instead of getting a gift, you gave one to me. YOU!